I feel worthless talking like this.

 

I know I am devalued as I talk like this.

 

 

I know I am antagonizing my own benefactors.

 

 

But why am I fighting for my basic rights.

 

Why are these people who attacked me in the open,

of which i've provided evidences for, countless times,

 

they are made to let go?

 

 

And I am here to suffer the effects all over again,

again and again, tormented?

 

 

 

What are you people doing?

 

 

 

You treat me like some amusing object without

emotions. Without feeling wronged, anger.

 

That i'm just suppose to take it.

 

 

What is wrong with you?

 

 

 

You people on the position of power, all of you.

 

You act in vanity.

 

 

and that is an accurate word.

 

 

Vanity.

 

 

 

 

Despite your trying, to help,

 

people who did affect,

 

Douglas, for instance. Let go.

 

 

I just find it, unbelievable.

 

 

To having to endure this repeating abuse,

 

despite all the evidence.

 

 

 

Why exactly am I here?

 

 

To work like an idiot while my attackers roam free?

 

 

Free to say anything they want,

 

free to promote themselves on my behalf,

 

 

when I am the victim?

 

 

 

 

Endless abuse. Harassment.

 

 

 

I'm sorry.

 

 

I know there are efforts.

 

 

I feel some of those efforts were wasted.

 

 

 

 

I am quickly heading down.

 

Mental illness.

 

 

The fact that you people, let these people use my mother

as a way to affect me, over and over again.

 

And you think this is okay.

 

 

 

I don't know.

 

 

I'm not well right now.

 

My emotions are haywire, I am driven to madness.

 

 

 

And this is every FUCKING TIME I COME UP WITH AN IDEA!!!

 

 

INSTEAD an reward!!! I AM PUNISHED TO THE WORST POSSIBLE

WAY,

 

and THEY ALL GET AWAY WITH IT!!!

 

 

WHAT THE HELL IS THE MATTER WITH YOU PEOPLE?!@