and my sister, saying insane things like I slept with my mom(?)

I have seen these relays coming in before.

 

She is wired in such a way that,

she pushes demented concepts and perversion into people's minds.

 

So if that oral thing was to just shock me, that could be.

 

Why I am saying this is to, try and analyze their psychology.

 

It is the only thing I have, in order NOT to became driven by madness

over the torture they applied on me throughout those years.

 

The husband is a shady, shady evil. Who aims to act like he's the hero.

When he confessed his entire intent, all those years, in the car,

after my mom died.

 

 

 

 

I have gone through. Impossible abuse throughout my life.

 

My father was a senselessly violent man.

 

Although I had seen glimpses of material generosity,

and a certain pride in his son.

 

95% of the time, the air of violence lingered,

to the point where I felt threatened of my life.

 

It was a constant game of shove, and if you were to retaliate, you die.

 

I was hit, senselessly, and with impossibly violent 'way' since the age of 3.

The damage was calculated. It was bruises or bloody bruises.

 

But the 'way'. The way and intent was to terrify the child,

to instill fear into him while he was still young.

 

As he so said to me when I was 17. I had left the household since then,

I did not see him.

 

 

 

 

This is the life I lived.

 

And my mother was a victim as well. She would often escape into her own reality.

And suppress what was happening around her with distorted perception.

 

But she was a good person. Gentle person.

And because she was a gentle person, she lived her life petrified of the evil surrounding her.

And denial of reality, I believe was often her own defense, coping mechanism.