i have been depressed for quite a while now.

prospects are prospects. that isn't the now.

this is no way to live.

 

trying to climb back up, spirit and all.

 

a short vacation would rid of this sinking feeling....

 

money would help. proper diet, accomodation.

 

kindly help out....

 

who goes on like this for 4 years?

 

does anyone understand the psychological harm behind

digitized captivity, gaslighting, continued communication through indirect

means?

 

i could not, even for a moment, invest time in myself,

to learn something new. self-improvement.

 

all that monitoring keeps me from sharing.

what have i got left if i am to give it all away?

 

my methods of research, did i allow sharing?

 

are the competitors sharing theirs?

 

how about my devices, which takes months to buy one.

was it destroyed?

 

what about the misleads, nevermind my anxiety.

 

what is wrong with you people?

 

 

this is enough. at least send support now Mr Musk.

you are observing a person heading for mental breakdown.

 

and you are all part of it.

 

understand.