...when you are so tired you don't

wash your clothing for a very long time....

you use rubbing alcohol on it to sanitize....

 

when you eat a can of pineapple.

and realize the can opener is filthy.

and you've already eaten the can.

 

when everywhere you go, you try your best

not to get sick. only to be back at

the shelter and get sick by others.

 

when you don't want to eat too much carbs.

cause you get sick. and you crave protein

but there is not enough. so you only

eat the little meat in there and discard

the rest...

 

when a stranger kicks your grocery bag as

you walk down the street. when i'm holding it.

you don't want to fight, so you just say.

what is your problem and let go.

(he seemed to have lost himself)

 

 

when you cold and sick but there is nowhere to go.

 

a thousand ways your life becomes miserable.

 

 

when people let go. they die of shame.

defeated by themselves. or anger.

one way or another you fight yourself.

 

really unnecessary suffering.........

 

 

can i please just focus on work............

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Currently,

 

3 things i'm for:

 

1. Equipment.

2. Private internet/room.

3. Time/method for focus/productivity.

 

These have levels of convenience.

 

From 1 to 10,

10 being best condition possible.

 

 

Right now,

 

1. Equipment = 2 moving to 4.

2. Private internet/room = 2 moving to 4.

3. Time/method for focus/productivity = 1 moving to 3.