and no, i wasn't trying to humiliate him.

earlier to this, i already mentioned something,

maybe about his medication on schizophrenia

(rather accidentally) of which i apologized.

i was trying to show that he and i were in good terms,

also calling him 'see - you are smart man' trying

to compliment him in front of his peers.

medication thing came out as topic to something else,

and i assumed everyone already knew about it,

since that is the first thing he told me.

 

so the second time i went to the tv room,

was after the harassment continued,

and i was asking to Douglas what exactly

was been told, trying to get to the bottom

of it, and if to ask him to say it in a

particular way, so it ends permanently.

 

he wouldn't listen, became frustrated/angry,

and ignore/avoid.

 

at that point, i couldn't stand more of it.

 

i can't risk fighting everyone because of

some mislead, everyday, something unpleasant,

or something alarming happens whenever

i went to the cafeteria hallway or just the lobby area.

 

and my time/energy was gradually following this,

getting worried, instead of the presentations,

or generating ideas.

 

for me, i refine. i try and eliminate problems

one by one. so i can focus on another thing.

 

further, the threat i received far earlier to

this, can spread across different people.

 

i have been in shelters before. i know

how volatile people can be here.

and at the slightest trigger. i didn't

want to go into that realm.

 

and it all depends on WHAT HE SAYS. and i had to

clear it up. that was my only intention.

 

to show good-will.