sigh....

 

every time someone asks me,

"how are you?"

 

if one of the staff here.

 

I ponder...

 

Is something bad going on...

in the channel...

 

is that why they are concerned?

 

 

and that momentary *belief (whether illusion/delusion i have no idea)

i'm ok, i'm fine, fades away in an instant....

 

and i am overwhelmed.

 

this is what it's like to be blind.

 

and further, no access to the internet

when i am back at the shelter.