Writing as I remember more...

 

From the hand shake "i'm sorry about

talking shit about you Johnny"

 

to him finally attempting to say

we're good, (but still diluted,

he didn't say we reconciled long ago,

and how we reconciled, and just left it there)

 

the interval between was,

 

somewhere along about 40-50 days or so.

 

During this time, he continued to talk

about me as if I was the enemy. This is

why the passive attacks were going on.

 

And even then it (harassment) still went on,

he refused to say why.

 

Refused to help further. Wouldn't hear it.

Ignores, storms out of the room angrily.

I can't mention that i'm being harassed.

 

It was becoming every day.

Root has to be pulled out otherwise,

anything. Trigger of a fight,

some mentally ill guy attempts harassment,

 

you don't know.

 

Why I went to the TV room where many were

gathered.

 

I had to. Didn't want to. Wanted to

avoid them all.

 

 

It's because he didn't clean up after himself,

I went through so much headache.

 

I try to discuss this like adults,

trying to measure fair give and take.

 

I was interrupted, constantly.

Only for Douglas to began hostility.

 

Which wasn't expected.

 

I figured we, everyone would get to the bottom of it,

once given enough facts. But rather it appeared,

I was being singled out.

 

 

 

 

 

It's his big mouth. Whenever things seem to be alright with him and I,

he would go out the door, and speak in the door about me (I heard him say my name)

to a friend. What was that insinuation?

 

Then he tells me, if I have someone to beat up, tell him, he's the guy?

(I was complaining about Mr Musk) (He didn't know this) (I said it at the end, laughing)

 

He's spoken a lot of 'shit' about me, and exaggerated as well.

 

(My anger toward him, was but a moment, and it was a expression of frustration.

It was almost equivalent to his 'scarface' routine, but replied to his bullying.

So he jumped. But I apologized (because he was momentarily scared).

That wasn't what I meant. Wasn't trying to fight him physically.)

 

He's done things like this multiple times (intimdation) and what he does/did

isn't even heard. I do the similar, and I am targeted for it forever, even after apology

and reconciliation.

 

It's backstabbing. It's coming from selfishness, disregard for how others are feeling, or affected by his actions,

or to manipulate, passively, so to intimidate, to instill fear.

 

When asking the fight, he had two choices.

 

1. Think about his image he's made on his peers.

2. Think about my well-being and try and get to the bottom of why i'm fearing.

 

If there would be an argument, it can be done as argument, in words.

 

Yes, it was stupid of me to accept that fight, but my hopes were to finally end the worrying.

(Of being threatened, or picked on, harassed in different ways) Of course, I tried dismantling it,

but Douglas was, as always, agitated up to the point of zen.

 

 

So I don't know. From my end, I went through a bunch of things because of Douglas only to be

cornered, because of my one time response to HIS bullying. Of which quickly followed an apology.

 

So was that fair? Certainly not. Does Douglas know what is fair give and take? No.

Like I say, it was singularly directed to benefit his ego, and sacrifice my well-being in different forms.