Sunday 30th. 6:08pm.

 

Writing this in case i forget.

Still sick to write but adding more as i remember.

 

current symptoms:

left nostril, runny nose, bloody mucus for some reason.

since yesterday. nausea still comes back but only mildly.

i can eat well now. overall, becoming stable.

 

 

adding to what i wrote earlier:

 

No matter how much water I drink, mouth becomes dry fast.

Nauea comes back when water passes through the body/

generally, I tilt my head at an angle/move it comes back as well.

 

I don't think it's the hospital's intent to make me sick obviously.

but in my opinion, there were some errors made.

 

1. If the test showed that I did not overdose on tyrenol,

why was I given the mucomist -

and maybe the thought, tyrenol simply gave me severe vertigo?

 

and that I came because of the effects of vertigo, that

I was fearful of overdose?

 

2. Because i was feeling well with just the water through IV,

i think 2nd test should have been waited on. but yes, just in case

i guess that should have been given.

 

3. however, when i testified i m having adverse effects, multiple times,

i was met with frusration. "what is it now?"

 

"you are your own worst enemy right now" (when i stopped the machine myself,

she scolds me saying "never touch the machine" (I can't press pause to save my own life?)

 

i say my vitals are changing, (prior to this) she takes it, and she says it is fine.

though there were heart skips (twice) as i try falling asleep. i am waking by it.

 

she was however visibly working very fast suddenly.

 

"too many symptoms" (there can be many symptoms)

"i'm not taking this out until the doctor tells me to."

 

my eyesight was going a bit blurry, my hearing was certainly losing its awareness.

 

the nurse took a temperature of my left ear saying this is broken (the machine she was holding)

and took it for the second time with another device, she falls silent. (she doesn't tell me the temp)

 

"in my 25 years of working here this has never happened"

 

finally, she admitted to some degree something has happened and said "next time, if you are in a situation like this tell them you get adverse effects to mucomist" (somewhere along this line)

 

she seems to be clearly afraid that blame will be shifted on her. but that is not what i'm getting at.

 

she, and the doctor wearing blue. wanted to call the cab and get me back to the shelter. as i 'refuse' to leave. (not refusing, i really couldn't do much in that situation)

(barely making baby steps to the washroom) the doctor wearing blue asks me when the shelter opens again. i say 2:30pm. she says it is well over 2:30pm.

 

they gave me a chair to sit on, the same nurse offered a sandwich. i did not accept (nausea), she gave me a bit of apple juice and water later on. i accept.

she say she'll check by the hour how i'm doing.

 

during this time. i felt like i was being forced out. i felt that the longer they kept me there, there would be records of mucomist having negative reactions

to my system, therefore they would be questioned. who knows.

 

so i say to the nurse, "this is going to sound awkward, but i realize that i am in a shelter and the staff may think that i am faking/misleading my symptoms with this drug.

and that i'm trying to sue the hospital for money" "i am not and despite being in a shelter, i do work for spaceX ma'am" "and i kid you not, something serious was going to happen, that drug was

killing me (can't remember what i said exactly but something along this."

 

i start taking baby steps to the washroom. but this time without the pole wheel.

 

the doctor who told me the "smart machine" (which used to be manual) so she had to work with other

doctors on giving it instructions, immediately calls the cab.

 

she leads the holding my bag and i follow. on my way, i talk to her.

 

"not to antagonize anyone personally, but if the hospital made a mistake of making my vertigo worse, resulting to these symptoms.

shouldn't they allow me to stay for further observation?" (somewhere along this line) the doctor replied. "well, our beds are full right now so..."

 

then i asked. "can i throw up?" she replied "i wouldn't do that if i were you"

 

well, i had to throw up (very little) because of the vertigo, as soon as i got out the cab.

defeats the purpose of giving me the drug don't you think? (but it was very little so i suppose all effects remain)

 

 

 

 

point being is this:

 

 

i'm not blaming you folks for giving me that drug. though logically, if the test results showed okay (that i did not overdose on tyrenol),

and i'm walking around fine, second test should have followed before the mucomist. if to think a bit deeper. maybe the tyrenol gave my vertigo worse.

(it has) and maybe the mucomist would do the same? flushing in the head is one of the symptoms of mucomist?

 

but i get it just in case.

 

 

two things however:

 

1. the attitude of the nurse was way too defensive when i was complaining about the symptoms. clearly fearful of the blame being shifted rather than caring for the patient.

the patient, in his ignorance can be misled by that attitude and scolding. had i believed her, (or rather continued to believe) and did npt stop the machine myself, i would

be seriously sick right now. (she said 30 more minutes (if i left that device alone) we would've known for certain) 30 more minutes i could be comatose lady.

 

i am not blaming, i am saying you must be open to all suggestions but especially complaints due to new substance. you cannot simply dismiss their claim. that is dangerous.

 

 

2. the correct thing for the hospital was to keep me under observation and overnight stay. i felt like this was taing precautionary measures before getting sued.

*instead prioritizing patient care.

 

 

3. my second visit. told the ambulance dont want to go to the same hospital for these reasons, i do not trust the staff. but he persuaded me out of it.

also, vertigo would get worse if longer distance to another hospital.

 

the doctor there, i think his assessment was fair. however, when i asked him about the blood test. he replied back to me, "there was a blood test?"

i waited 4 hours on the dirty floor of the hospital after taken my blood, and he asks ME there was a blood test? then what exactly did the nurse in that room,

(where the doctor comes to greet me) say to him? what information was dismissed and was this one of the nurses in that previous shift? i don't know.

 

that was insane. he said, something along the lines of: "based on the physical testing, i don't even have to look at the blood test and let you go, but i will just in case"

 

he came back telling me no issues with the results as well, but i was surprised by it all. really, how can you not know there was a blood test? why wasn't that information relayed?

 

 

 

 

 

so those are my thoughts.

 

 

my phone was on. so were the cameras ive been seen all the way. so you know i'm telling the truth.

 

 

i have no idea if anyone is to be blamed. that is not up to me.

 

 

if they did something wrong here i will let the authorities to decide.

 

 

 

but you can bet that, i'm not saying this to get money from the hospital. xD

 

 

 

no patients should go through that kind of experience, is all.

 

 

 

 

the doctor lady also said "in my 20 years of practice, this never happened."

 

well... other symptoms mentioned prior can conflict with new meds. that sort of thing should be thought of more carefully in my opinion.

i think 'just in case' i did overdose was ok, so not blaming for the mucomist. it's the process of taking it and aftercare i do question however.