Unlike her, I do not wish her to be punished for what she is,

and how she affected my life.

 

(flipping the above sentence to myself - i was someone going through

impossible torment over my mom's death. suicidal. in my perspective,

how she responded to me that time, and what she said to uncle were

calculating, callous, psychopathic. i won't go as far as an accusation

of intent of harm. but i will say that her competitive attitude towards me

with the people near her has its own meaning (to her), she's already

set me as something else from the family long ago, what i am, to her,

was a burden, and to the rest of the family as well. she simply hid this.

they were in it together. all of them. to alienate and isolate me.

to judge, to assume. and when i was going up, she couldn't handle this.

i don't know what she says now, she's got that 'sucking up' to the

more successful side about her. bottom line is this. she is -

in my perspective, and i hold my perspective from experience,

and logic. she is NOT a good person. Authorities, investors,

if you remember, please tell her to leave my life, please tell her to

stop connecting to me.)

 

 

in many ways, i was a competitor since i was born because of father's

heritage, down the line of a King. I was already set as a competitor

to their sons, and ANY mistakes, or ANY possible chance of making me

look bad, they took it in their HEARTS to see me in that way,

to BELIEVE in that way. WITHOUT any verification or justification.

That kind of prejudice, I endured, and my writing to her, my speaking

to her, was one that of VANITY BECAUSE of her behavior towards me.

I hope people can understand this. I couldn't stand it.

They assumed things about me to a point ----- ADHD, autism,

lack of intelligence, unable to enter college, gloating, bunch of things.

 

 

SHE SHOULD NOT BE THERE!

 

 

Rather, I JUST WISH FOR HER TO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

 

Leave my life.

 

I don't know her. I don't want to associate with her.

 

 

I hope the Korean authorities say something about this.

 

Converatorship? Asking for shares,

threatening to sue for money,

despite all she's done?!

 

 

She reasons with herself to the point of insanity.

 

She doesn't know what she did wrong,

 

and will continue believing it was in her right.

 

 

 

That's just no respect at all, to her nephew,

as an individual, as a human being.

 

The fact that she violated agreements over and over again,

stabbing me behind my back....

 

 

People. She should not be there.

 

She should be respecting my request to leave my life.

 

 

There are many things she will not admit to,

and reason away all things she did wrong.

 

But I remember the ruthless comparison,

the discrimination, the judgement without verification,

how cornered and helpless i felt because of it.

 

She *made me feel like i'm nothing.

 

I know she's saying opposite things in the public,

but it wasn't like this one on one.

 

And I won't forget that.

 

 

That woman should not be associating with me.

I announced severence long ago.

 

Whatever good or ill she feels,

that is her imagination.

 

There is nothing left but detachment.

 

To me, she's disrespectful, authoritative, assuming,

backstabbing, chaotic, relentless, gloating, judging,

threatening, person.

 

I want her to leave my life,

I don't want her to be there,

I don't want her to associate with me.

 

I don't know her.

She doesn't know me.

 

It's as simple as this.

 

She is no family. Misleading, gaslighting, abusive, whatever

she is. I don't want anything to do with her.

 

 

 

Facts are clear. When I stated she is competitive, you've seen this in public.

When I say she antagonized me, she did. There are many things she's done.

And it should have been visible to you all.

 

It's only over time her attitude may have changed,

and that is due to my progress. She is simply adjusting.

 

Imagine the prejudice, the discrimination during the times I was helpless and needy.

One on one, in person, it was different. There are reasons why I was writing in vanity,

in madness.

 

I would never forfeit family, unless that person continues to torture me in some

relentless way. Bring up my previous writing about her. See who she is.

 

She can talk about all this love and 'stay' but what she did to me.

Her attitude towards me, it was as if, she couldn't contain herself

in treating me like a homeless. It bursted out now and then.

 

I write this to my sister about this. When we were reconciling.

 

I don't know how they see each other. I don't give a damn.

I have always been the one who was isolated by their will,

always the one who was treated with backstabbing, rumors spread, and planned behind my back,

without a direct discussion. They chose a representative and that was Eileen.

 

And all my words, all my emotions were discarded and trashed and immediately backstabbed.

 

And when I went back to Korea, she was visibly worried I would be a burden,

and her attitude, this discrimination and comparison came as we spoke,

and she admits that she was 'gaslighting' saying, "you could see that?"

as I spoke about how I felt she was misleading. To her, treating me not as an individual,

someone whom she can easily manipulate, someone who was in the weakest possible position,

someone who lost his mom and had nowhere to go.

 

It was a fucking joke.

 

 

They helped with cash yes. Collectively. Then discontinued communication.

She was the representative, and she toyed with me all the way.

 

As she is doing now.

 

 

If that is not mental abuse, collective conspiracy, what is?

 

I don't know. I guess the law doesn't see it that way. Maybe Chloe's dad took all the blame.

I have no idea. I don't care.

 

What I do know is that, that woman, is not someone you get near to.

That woman, is not someone you open up to.

 

That woman, and the few beside her, they are inherently cold and self-centered people.

Nothing they say should be trusted. They hide behind half-truths, while hiding their wrong.

 

So it would be infinitely difficult to see their hearts.

 

But the actions show. How I felt I will not forget.

How I felt, is not from my own delusion, but I was sincerely mistreated.

 

And she will reason herself out of this.

 

But the public should not agree.

 

Do not let her be involved in my life.

 

If she has ANY honor, she should have left. Realizing i'm gone from them since long ago.

 

And make this clear to her. That she should respect my wishes for the final time.

 

That I wish to be detached from her. I do not wish for ANY of them to speak about me.

 

The only lingering better emotions I have left is toward my childhood memories.

 

And that is to Wongi. But even that is now dwindling, as I have my share of distrust and hate

toward his parents.

 

And that is it.

 

I ask no responsibility of my tragedy, my fate during those times.

 

But to be misled, but to be gaslit, but to be hidden and cut off from communication,

only to see them speak about me now.

 

I will not allow it.

 

 

It will come to that they have wrong intent. I was discarded then,

and all things reasoned out and can be forgiven in retrospect,

under the pretense of stability, comfort behind wealth.

 

But I will not live a lie.

 

I will not forget how I was treated.

 

And people watching this, but especially the Korean authorities,

should cease their involvement in the channel.

 

They should realize that they have no right.