the number of times i help him.

 

library, spending the whole day.

twice snacks,

twice gave him a lighter.

 

he just asks and asks.

5 dollars, 20.

help buy a phone. a laptop.

"you're gonna do this johnny."

 

why the hell would i.

 

give me some weed and says,

"nobody does that shit for you"

 

dear lord.

 

 

and when i speak to him gently,

locker banging loud - (locker is designed that way)

and that i have a ear issue,

he always replies with a yell-

always in some fight mode.

why? i'm just trying to initiate

a gentle 'plea'.

 

it's been like interacting with a crazy person.

my conversation was always met with a yell,

interruption by ranting, or ignoring altogether.

 

it's just incredibly stressful to talk to this

person.