4 years.

 

The fact that Mr Musk only tells people now

to delete that video at my statement.

 

It is mind boggling

how i'm not treated as a person

 

but this, this toy.

Publicity will help?

He who controls the memes controls the world?

 

Have I any say?

 

To me, it's obvious these things should be stopped.

 

But authorities there just let go on.

 

I am abused and harassed, attacked in many ways

and the person, who appeared to be the most financialy

generous.

 

Promotes their actions joining them the same as well.

I am blind, I don't know what is going on.

 

It takes a very long time, if ever, to erase

and deduct the mislead. Until then it is all stress.

I can't function, nor can I focus, and sleep

becomes an issue as well.

 

I have went through hell. My jokes are benign by nature,

it has no deeper meaning. He abused me in insidious ways,

to actually to affect, harm, even at my request to stop.

 

So to call on banter? When my statement was asking to stop?

 

No. I can't take this insanity anymore.

 

 

You people just watch and entertain yourselves

providing unnecessary suffering, worry, pain.

 

What is wrong with you?

 

And you get away, over and over again.

 

 

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Mr Musk. To others, this instance may look

isolated. Not a big deal.

 

To me. I know how relentless your harassment was,

and to what duration despite my asking to stop.

 

 

Mr Bezos agrees with me. Probably not the way

I approached expressing myself, but your

harassment has been clear Mr Musk.

 

So am I sorry for the profanity?

 

No. I think you deserve it. Along with the anger.

 

But no. It don't mean that i'll be expressing

myself that way forever. It is too stressful.

 

But don't get me wrong either. Those emotions are

genuine. There are times I feel like i'm going mad.

And all because of you.

 

This anger. Expression. Today was enough.

Keep this in mind and remember it.

 

Yes. I am going to "Chill".

 

But I hope now you understand what your harassment

does to people.

 

And no, not for infinite amount of money i'm not

taking that kind of harassment over and over again.

 

What the hell is the point in existing then?

 

Subjected to your abuse constantly?

 

When i'm trying to be inspired, to uplift my spirit

to be inspired, and I am trapped by your emotional

manipulation and can't think of anything else?

 

What the fuck is wrong with you?

 

You give me compliments, you say you will give

these rewards, and you DISRUPT me, KEEP me from

expressing my creativity plagueing my emotions with

misleads?

 

And you find this funny?

 

How many times was it?

 

My health was affected. My focus, quality of life,

my decisions, EVERYTHING was affected during all that

duration of your harassment!!!

 

And no, there was no banter. I simply made stupid jokes.

You ABUSED a person.

 

Ok. I can go on like this talking about this forever.

 

I'm going to stop now.

 

 

At the worst of my assumptions. You are someone evil.

At the best of my assumptions. You have a sick sense

of what is comedy. It is gained from cruelty and torture,

and you enjoy this.

 

Both of which I have no space in my life for.

 

 

If I am working, I am working.

Why should I be affected by your abuse?

 

What is your problem?

 

 

You've been given a warning, I asked you to stop again and again.

 

And I ask you again. STOP.

 

Just stop.

 

 

Don't be thinking my asking you to give me the rewards

as self-serving, of greed.

 

It's enough.

 

And I do not know how I am to feel about you.

 

Should I be grateful because of money?

Should I be angered because you toy with my existence?

 

And if you are to think that i'm the type of person

who accepts harassment for money.

 

That is where you find trouble.

THat is where I find you deeply, deeply disturbing.

 

That is where you will incarnate my wrath.

 

Understand this.

 

 

You are basically treating me like a 'bitch'.

Whatever that term means, I think i'm using it correctly.

 

If you believe, affecting my mind, therefore my body

is okay. That my health gradually declines.

 

That my situation declines without any support.

That I am being watched and you are enjoying my suffering.

 

If there was a law that would allow this as self-defense,

and would allow me to retaliate physically.

 

You do not want to know the outcome of that would be.

 

That is how I am mad.

 

Because I know the damage that was caused on me,

because of you. I alone know. Over this duration.

 

I know what i'm capable of. I know what I could have

gotten, made myself better if without you.

 

I kept up because of these prospects you were promising.

 

But at some point I must ask,

 

am I a 'bitch'?

 

Am I supposed to be taking your harassment like a

good little slave?

 

 

You need to understand. One of the reasons why

I dismiss myself from meeting you physically

is the fact at this point, I may lose control

with bottled up emotions of anger.

 

I am that mad.

 

I ask you again. Please stop.

 

 

And authorities. If he is charged, please let him go.

Last chance.

 

 

Mr Musk. You proceed with the transaction.

You can take off as much as you will it to.

 

I will be 'grateful' in this sense that you have

believed in my abilities and you are giving me a different

world to explore with these resources.

 

However. You must also understand.

The entire universe is not worth abuse and harassment.

 

What exists outside the confines of your own tranquility.

What exists beyond yourself and your balance?

 

In fact, in a selfish perspective, what exists beyond yourself?

And who is anyone to disrupt that center of being?

 

 

Once that happens. There is nothing.

 

All that I see would be despair, clouded by anger

and anguish.

 

And the fact that you are foolish enough to toy with that

concept, without fearing repurcussions.

 

That makes you someone very dangerous to me.

 

And I believe you have a wrong idea of what I am.

 

I joke, and I joke expecting the same degree of that

give and take. I do not tolerate harassment.

 

 

I am confused on how I am to understand you,

as your balance of moral core and financial generosity,

your attempt to help humanity and at the same time,

don't mind someone's suffering. And causing it.

 

It is completely contradictory.

 

 

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I will give you respects as to your decisions in business and your abilities.

 

I will however defend myself personally from your abuse and harassment.

 

 

 

That is where I would stand.

 

 

 

So I ask, keep things professional.

Please do carry-on with the transaction.

Send someone here, give me the link.

Let me begin.

 

 

as for any jokes or harassment,

even when things are seemingly alright,

I suggest to you. You better not.

 

Your sense of comedy, but especially toward me,

is askewed/ it has become a perversion after whatever you went through.

Or your concept on who I am.

 

 

Ok that is it.

 

 

 

I apologize to everyone for my expressing madness.

 

How else do you know?

 

All my attempts to convince you people of my emotional state has failed over this text.

 

I walk around fine, I do my chores here. You see me through the camera, and you think i'm just alright -

 

think again.

 

 

I don't need this coming from Mr Musk. Or any of you.

 

I already have my share of hardship outside this.