Ms.Green, if the relays are true,

I think you and I need to sit and have a chat

over tea or something one day.

 

This is also making my difficult situation

even more difficult because right now,

i can only think for myself.

(really hoping i don't end up in the streets

this month)

 

so for me, yourself,

and everybody else sounds incredibly selfish.

 

i'm blind to the channel,

and people are discussing me,

 

while fully aware my situation has declined to a point

where ---- it's become critical.

 

but for everyone else it's all fun and games.

 

not you specifically, but still -

is it rational for you to speak about me

in the channel, when i'm not present there.

 

not really. you are free to email me.

talk, converse. but that won't happen either will it.

 

so. please. if what is being relayed is true,

you must understand, i'm not the type of person

who looks back. rather i bury the past in my chest

and march on. that is how it is.

and i prefer it that way.

 

there are new worlds to see.

it is a matter of perspective.

 

i really am trying to be emphathetic and all,

but very limited in communication where i am.

 

i have no idea what is going on.

 

so hope we can have tea, hang around with our friends one day. not just once but for quite a while,

if that will help you let things go.

 

 

i am seeing on youtube you drink a lot these days?

previously if i read the relays correct,

you work in a alcohol related place?

be careful. change job. that is not a good place to be.

 

 

 

i am.... not exactly a person who needs people per say....

there is an entire world(s) i explore alone that -

i forget i can be lonely as well.

 

you got kids, you're a bright beautiful person.

the world is yours.

 

i really don't have much to say

i know it sounds shallow how i'm trying to make you feel better

 

but i really can't see more than my own situation...

very sorry about this.

 

what i do see:

 

so i see these youtube clips,

this woman singing beside people

who are making sign language,

i see the few relays about you

 

and i get from the lyrics that

you are looking at this from

perspective of love.

 

but.... it really has to work

both ways doesn't it. :|

 

for me, it is past.

what could have been.

 

i simply aspire to find another love

in the future.....

 

and i hope you can be happy for me.

as i you.

 

 

 

it really is an honor ms.Green.

 

but i hope you can understand,

i've moved on very long time ago.