nobody has a clue what kind of life i went through as a kid.

 

 

all that is left,

 

 

i suppress my memories.

 

i try to revive better ones.

 

 

 

and i try not to feel like my identity isn't defined by this.

 

 

 

you can laugh but,

 

you know that scene in "good-will hunting" with Robin Williams,

 

where he says in repeat - "it's not your fault"

 

and the kid suddenly cries -

 

xD

 

 

not many would really understand. xDDD

 

 

not that i think i'm a genius, (i think i'm clever often though xD)

 

but that scene really got to me once in a while.

 

 

 

 

ok, sorry about writing about my past. it's just that....

 

people who should care, doesn't.

 

 

 

 

 

ok so ----- i need to focus on sustenance somehow.......

 

keep moving in and out of memories of past.

 

as time draws near to an end ---- this on-screen thing....

 

maybe i can find a new life now?

 

 

who knows.......