Went to the social office,

found a very kind person.

 

She told me what to do.

 

There are two choices now.

1. find a room in time.

2. shelter.

 

both may or may not work out.

but at least it is a option.

 

 

but issue is this.

 

i've been on social assistance for nearly 5 consecutive years.

 

my caseworker sent me a ODSP package (disability package)

because social assistance isn't suppose to last this long.

 

I have anxiety that leads me to insomnia.

Sometimes it is severe. I can't sleep for days.

 

People would think that is no disability.

 

But issue is, if I get a job, it must be labor-related.

and result of that, I just can't keep up.

 

I will be late. It will be hard to communicate.

 

Meaning I can't function.

 

But ODSP requires many months of consultation from the

CAM-H therapist. Of which I tried, but ultimately,

at the decision making place, they just don't think

it's a disability at all.

 

I myself, is unsure. But the effect is there.

I'd feel just fine and then, not long after,

I would miss appointment times, unable to work.

 

Often it's because i'm daydreaming.

I can't exactly put a stop to that either.

 

So my guess is that....

 

If I get shelter, there will be no help.

It will be delayed deliberately.

 

I can see how this is going now.

You can try and hide it for other reasons,

but the real reason is for me to work/complete.

 

Please understand that no one is meant to

live like this for this duration,

in this situation.

 

My mental, and physical health is declining bit by bit,

and it shows.

 

I am certain that Mr Musk thinks all this endurable,

like it's nothing. But all is fun and games

until someone loses an eye.

 

It is imminent. Because I can't sustain myself this way.

 

I have delivered enough.

 

And whether I find shelter or not.

I must ask for support.